我的一个小误会(可能比较无聊)

雨无伦次

是我的一个很严重的误会的理解（不知大家如何理解的）：
I would imagine myself entering and leaving them,and just that-entering and leaving over and over and over again-would see me through a bad feeling I did not have a name for.I only knew it felt a little like sadness but heavier than that.Now that I saw these feelings(places),they looked ordinary,dirty,worn down by so many people entering and leaving them in real life,and it occurred to me that I could not be the only person in the world for whom they were were an item of imagination.It was not my first struggle with the disappointment of reality and it would not be my last.

My past-so familiar and predictable that even my unhappiness then made me happy not just to think of it.

御长更

呵呵，没看出来误会在哪里。只看出来强烈的矛盾感

云起时

嘿,破小孩他姐

雨无伦次

不是，不知道大家是怎么理解这段话得呀